Eve of 3rd month anniversary

Have been on course for the past 2 days @ PLCC, attending Coaching Curriculum. Quite a useful course which will definitely help me in the future when I have to coach new entrant officers. =)

Looking forward to tomorrow when I can meet my B2 for dinner. Time flies and both of us has been together for 3 months oredi. As we gonna step into our 4th month, I just prayed that the Lord will continue to keep watch over this relationship and reign in this relationship. Whenever I thought of my future with B2, I get excited and it motivates me to work harder to achieve the goals that I had set and discussed with B2. Just wanna B2 to know that my love for her will continue to grow and she will continue to be the darling of my eyes, hee. =P

Went for a run in the evening, juz need to kick-start my running habits again before getting prepared for the 1/2 marathon this coming June. Not an impressive start though but still, it's the 1st step towards my training goal. However with the timing clocked and if I were to take my IPPT now, I will definitely flung, haha. Target for this route before my IPPT will be under 15mins.

http://www.mapmyrun.com/run/singapore/singapore/462725303

Good Bye 2007, Welcome 2008

My title seems cliche but well, that's the way I am feeling now. The year 2007 had bought lotsa learning experience for me, be it in my work or in my personal life. As the year 2007 is drawing to a close in 3 hours time, it's also a time of self-reflection and setting resolutions to improve myself to a better man.

Thankz to all my buddies who stood close to me during my down period back in Aug/Sept, it's alwayz wonderful to know that I have you guyz to fall back on in my time of despair. Kudos to Lau and Meiye, who kept me company that nite.

Thankz to my wonderful colleagues back in QRP, for teaching me and guiding me along the way when I was still considered as a newbie in the institution.

Thankz to my ex-cell group members, for praying on my behalf that this prodigal son will return to the Father's arm again. I had since made my way back to the Father in November.

Thankz B2 for being in my life. Life had never been the same since we started our courtship on the 16th Oct 2007. You had been a blessing to me and indeed, you are God's sent angel into my life. The joy and laughter we had everytime when we are together, the unhappiness that we had whenever your parents objected to our relationship, the surprises that we gave to each other, these are all wonderful experiences that will strengthen our relationship even further. I thank God for you in my life. =)

Lastly, I thankz God for not forsaking me. For the past 3 years, You had never gave up on this prodigal son of yours. I knew this because there are alwayz brother-in-Christ or sister-in-Christ popping up from nowhere and talk to me about you. If You had indeed forsaken me, I supposed there won't be anyone reminding me about Your Holy Presence.

Alrite, that's the end of my thanking speech. Now, it's my resolution for the year 2008;
1) More patience towards my inmates and towards my close ones
2) Spend wisely as I need to save up for a major event =P
3) Less procrastination
4) Get my class 2B licence before 2009!
5) Get my class 3 licence
6) Get back on my fitness for my dragon boat competitions and IPPT
7) Running on a regular basis for the full marathon
8) Doing my quiet time everyday without fail
9) Grow towards the Lord
10) Loving my B2 more and more with every passing day

What a wonderful Christmas season =)

Have not been blogging for a long time due to the nature of my work and also, trying to get plenty of rest in the midst of low body immunity. Started my 1 week long break since Sunday and I think this week should be sufficient for me to charge up my energy level once again to face 2008. Alot of wonderful events transpired from the last blogging till this point of time.

7th Dec 2007: It was B2's 26th birthday and was looking forward to celebrate her birthday for the 1st time with her. Not just with her, but with her family members too! Imagine the butterflies in my stomach flying in a disarray formation. Thank God that the dinner @ Waraku went smoothly and I hope B2 will like the Guess watch that I had bought for her. =)

16th Dec 2007: It was our 2nd month together. It's the 1st weekend that both B2 and I were having the entire weekend off, so coincidental and so nice for me to spend the entire weekend. She bought her Sony Vaio at last and she was very happy with it, haha, I felt happy as well whenever I see her smile. =)

24th Dec 2007: It's Christmas eve, the second day of my 1 week long break. B2 got a 1/2 day official off from her workplace so we met up earlier than what we had scheduled. Spent the entire afternoon together after I had bought a cookies and cream log cake from Gelare as we will be going over to her 2nd aunt's place for dinner in the evening. This time round, the butterflies in my stomach is flying everywhere because I will be meeting her extended family. Never felt so pressurised before but I supposed it's still a matter of time that I will be meeting all her relatives. Her aunts and uncles are very warm in receiving us, guessed that's the reason why I stopped feeling nervous after a short while in the house. Had a wonderful dinner and the log cake turned out to be so delicious, will contemplate to get Gelare's log cake again for the next Christmas.

25th Dec 2007: Christmas is here at last. Can't imagine that I had spent my 3rd Christmas as a Prison Officer (signed my letter of offer on 19th Dec 2005) and my 1st Christmas with B2, hehe. B2 didn't had a good morning at work due to her cranky and hormones-imbalanced boss. But well, I just want to be there for her because she is so precious to me. This is going to be another important day for me as I will be going over to her place for the 1st time since we started our courtship 2 months ago. Her mummy will be cooking 'hong zhao ji mian xian', a fuzhou delicacy which the chicken was cooked in a type of chinese wine. Spent the entire evening looking through B2's photo albums and she looked so cute as a baby, haha.

This Christmas season is so wonderful because first of all, I had gotten back to Christ again after back-sliding for the past few years. Secondly, I had a wonderful gf who is supportive of my job and accept as who I am. Thirdly, this relationship seems to head for an end back in Oct due to her parents' objection and yet I am still able to sit down and have a good chat with her daddy and other relatives. Indeed, I thank God for His wonderful work and I thank God for B2 in my life. I thank God for answering our prayers and may the Lord continue to bless this relationship. A Merry Christmas to all my friends. =)

So proud of you... =)

After a long week, it seems that I can going to have a good rest on Mon as I am clearing my off-in-lieu.

Had my Housing Unit Dinner @ Turf City on Saturday evening and well, it was a fruitful dinner as we managed to sit down and discuss some of the operational issues and ways to rectify the existing problems. After which the guyz went off for a drink @ Holland Village while I made my way to Kallang Theatre to meet my k-buddies for the long-awaited karaoke session. Quite an enjoyable session as I had not sang for weeks and I can still hit the high notes in some of the songs, hehe. =P

Had only a couple of hours of sleep before waking up and making my way to the Padang because I had promised my B2 that I will be waiting for her @ the finishing point for the SCSM. So proud of her because she actually clocked a sub 2hr 30min (latest update: 2hr 24min 06sec) for her 1/2 marathon! B2, I AM SO PROUD OF YOU. =)

B2 with her finisher medal after her 1/2 marathon.

Well, after the race, we spent the entire day together, going for church service and as well as taking our rest in the afternoon before preparing for a wedding dinner invitation from 1 of her friends. And once again, she is the darling of my eye of the night because I do not wanna take my eye off her for a single moment, hee... I am in luv... =P

B2 and me after dressing up for the wedding dinner invitation. =)

What a way to resume blogging...

Never knew that I will resume my blogging in such a manner... Got home from Stephen's wake and alot of things had been going through my mind, making me realised that life is very much fragile, and not to mention, unpredictable.

Was chatting with some of the alumni's friends earlier on and I supposed that I am not the only one who was taken aback by his death. Indeed, his passing away is a loss not just to all his friends, but as well as the dragonboating arena... Rest in peace brother...

http://energizerloh.blogspot.com/

http://www.straitstimes.com/Latest%2BNews/Singapore/STIStory_181687.html

I am back!!!

It has been a long time since I pen down my thots in this blog of mine. Those who knew wat happened, guessed I need not to say much here.

Unable to pen down all my thots is a terrible experience, because for me, I need this blog to vent all my fustrations. However due to certain 'constrains', I have to watch what I am writing down here.

Anyway juz wanna my readers to know that I am doing well so far. Though I went through some darkest period during my absence from the blog, but I am able to cope with it well.

Thankz to my cohort mates who stood by me, thankz to those who kept their faith in me. I will watch what I am writing here in the future.

The more I tried to avoid, the harder for me to recover...

It was a nice wonderful day to meet up wif all my cohort mates @ HTA today for our mid-OJT sharing session. The sharing session was quite a valuable one as all of us shared our experience on the ground for the past 7 weeks. It was interesting to know the different cultures in different institutions. People, will see all of you again when we go back for our Developmental Phase @ the end of September. In meanwhile, work hard!

Juz a reflection of myself, realised that the more I tried to avoid certain songs that would remind me of AQ, the harder it is for me to recover from the hurt. This song by 宇恒 titled 依然是朋友 was the song that she played on her N70 when I last walked her home after our dinner on the 26th June 2006. I was oredi in bed last nite while leaving my radio on. Halfway thru my sleep, a familiar tune woke me up and the radio was playing this song. I couldn't manage to sleep after that becoz it brought back alot of memories, especially our last meeting that evening. I guessed instead of escaping from the things/songs that reminded me of her, I should face it bravely to overcome it and thus, I have decided to put it in my blog.

A quick update of myself...

No mood to blog recently, partly due to work, and largely due to AQ... Learning how to let go of her bit by bit for the past few weeks.

Well, met up wif Mousey Kam last Thursday for our long awaited meal @ Billy Bombers. Finally had our cheese fries. Walked around Seiyu and Bugis Village after that before we called it a day.

Anyway, I hope life will resume normal for me in days to come. A total isolation might not be a bad idea afterall. Moreover I am drown in my workaholism attitude. I really hope I can recover from this 'illness' soon...

State of self-denial... <想念你的歌>

Been working very hard for the past 2 weeks, mainly is to get my mind off AQ. However I was too naive to think that by burying myself in tonnes of work, I am able to get on without thinking her. Was working AM shift today & when I reached home, I was pretty tired. Took a nap (which turned out to be a mistake) & I dreamt of her again. This is the 3rd time that I dreamt of her since after getting her email... To love someone is hard but to forget someone whom you love before is even harder...

是否曾经后悔过
那时候扶起说走就走
是否偶尔想过我
所以埋怨我
每当听你的下落
逞强常常让人无法负荷
躲起来边哭边说 i miss you
还舍不得把你封锁

星光闪烁如何拥有
站在远方才看见星空的轮廓
虽然有时候会寂寞
墙上时钟停格
你说放开手才会快乐
用半生的脉搏写成
想念你的歌

该怎么才能让你懂呢
谁对谁错已经模糊了忘记了
我们都处理得有点笨拙
已经从来没有像这一次如此爱过
想念常让我无法负荷
常常只有一个念头 i miss you
我的爱情从来没有死掉过

星光闪烁如何拥有
站在远方才看见星空的轮廓
虽然有时候会寂寞
墙上时钟停格
你说放开手才会快乐
用半生的脉搏写成
想念你的歌

我要快乐

I wonder how long I can numb myself from this issue... My heart tells me, 'Kev, stay strong, you have to be happy, alrite? Loving a person does not mean you have to be wif that person. As long as AQ is happy, you should feel happy too.'

又被爱伤了一遍
无所谓当作成长
刚刚走开的人
烟还点着味道却淡了

我并不是天生爱寂寞
却比任何人都多
就算把世界给我
我还是一无所有

我要快乐
我要能睡的安稳
有些人不抱了才温暖
离开了才不恨
我早应该割舍

我要快乐
哪怕笑的再大声
心不是热的全都是假的
只有眼泪是真的

把从前想了一遍
谢谢了伤我的人
想做乐观的人
每种雨声听了都不冷

我并不是天生爱寂寞
却比任何人都多
就算把世界给我
我还是一无所有

我要快乐
我要能睡的安稳
有些人不抱了才温暖
离开了才不恨我早应该割舍

我要快乐
哪怕笑的再大声
心不是热的全都是假的
我的决定是对的

Courage to move on...

I had finally hardened my heart and plucked my courage to adopt the following things that I had done... To be honest, I had never blamed her for the decision that she had made. Neither do I hate her. I am juz trying to move on wif my life & if any part of her still exist within myself, it wun be easy for me to move on. I nid to isolate & 'quarantine' myself totally from her...

1) Deleted all the emails that she had sent to me
2) Deleted all her pictures
3) Deleted all her sms-es she had sent to me for the past 1 yr
4) Deleted all the mms that I had sent to her before.
5) Deleted her from my Friendster account
6) Deleted her from my MSN Messenger
7) Blocking her from my MSN Messenger
8) Deleted her hp number from my number list

Time to move on???

我一路向北
离开有你的季节
你说你好累
已无法再爱上谁

AQ finally replied via email & I had to learn to move on w/o her in my life from today onwards. I can't understand why she cannot tell me the exact reason, is it so hard for her to tell me? A year of disappointment and hurt are simply too much for me to bear. I have collapsed within myself, I am plunged into an ocean of full of grievings...

Expect to see a change in personality of myself, guessed it's my fault to drag this issue for so long. If only I had been firm wif my decision during CNY...

It's my off day today...

For 2 consecutive Sundays, I am having my off day. This came as a surprise for me since I had my off day on last Sunday. Think Chief Uvaraja is kind to me since I am new to QRP. But well, manage to get some rest today, so that I can have enough energy to last for the whole of next week.

Simply can't wait to get back to work tomorrow coz I still wanna learn more things. Indeed, the workaholic nature in me still exist. =)

N/B: Long shift tomorrow, which means no World Cup Finals for me 2nite, boo hoo... =(

My 1st day @ QRP...

Ooh, another day had gone. It was my 1st day @ QRP (Queenstown Remand Prison) & I was very glad that I had not made the wrong choice in putting QRP on top of my list. Whatever I had seen so far, the staffz over there are pretty helpful & they are willing to teach. Most importantly, there is a chin up bar near to the staffs' changing room, which means I can continue to maintain my strength. Was brought around for orientation by Sgt Sharil in the morning & though I went through 1 round in QRP, I think I will still have difficulty in navigating my way to the different housing units as the walkways are macam like mazes. But as a man of great adaptibility & a man wif great sense of direction, this should not pose a major problem to me. =P In the afternoon, I was asked to attend the Housing Unit Management Meeting so that for me, I roughly know what's going on in QRP as the possibility of me being a PS (Personal Supervisor) as a new entrant officer is close to 100%.

Oh yah, was quite surprised to see Ganesh appearing in QRP when I reported for work this morning. He told me that he received a call on Tuesday, informing him that he will be posted to QRP instead of KBC. So well, I ain't alone by myself.

Kev is feeling happy after his 1st day @ QRP, but he is still in the state of emotional turmoil... Date of recovery = unknown...

Marching into the real battlefield...

Can't imagine that I will be starting my 1st day as a full fledged prison officer tomorrow morning when I report for work @ QRP. Actually there are both excitement & intimidation going on right now inside my heart. On 1 hand, I am looking forward to the day which I can be known as a staff rather than an attachment staff but on the other hand, I will be shouldering a much heavier responsibility as a full fledged officer compared to a 'responsibility-less' trainee back in HTA... Haiz, but nevertheless, I am gonna jia you & I am gonna confidence myself when I stepped into the real 'battlefield' tomorrow morning.

Had a great time singing wif the guyz yesterday @ Partyworld. Thankz Mei Yi for organising the outing & thankz Sean for once again, organising the dinner @ your dad's cooking stall. I wondered when would be the next time that we people can meet up again as all of us are going to different institutions...

I still can't forget Monday... I missed having dinner wif AQ @ Park Mall's Fish & Co. I missed taking the train together wif her. I missed doing a little bit of shopping wif her. I missed interacting wif her. I missed pressing her Stitch's keychain. I missed her smile. I missed her voice. And I missed walking down the stretch of road along Lorong Ong Lye when I was sending her back home... When can I get to see you again?

Kev is in a state of emotional turmoil @ this point of time...

A new chapter of my life...

Baris Pengawai Dalam Baris Bersurai...
With this command, we ended our passing out parade in the basketball court of HTA. There were joy but @ the same time, there were tears. Perhapz the tears ain't visible, but for me, the tears are deep down inside my heart. As much as I am looking forward to our passing out parade, but still, 17 weeks had stirred up plenty of emotions inside me. No doubt @ times I dreaded the life of a trainee because of the restrictions we had, but no matter what, the process is still enjoyable and stress-free. I am gonna miss TEAM DELTA, I am gonna miss bunk 01-30, I am gona miss Cohort 02/2005! These 17 weeks really flew like an arrow whizzing thru the air...

I had no regret about returning back to HTA early yesterday despite the fact that I was still having a fever. It really warms my heart to see the effort that the committee had put in for the celebration dinner had turned out to be a pretty successful one. It really makes me proud to be part of the committee & @ the same time, I feel proud that I have Lau as my partner to plan all those programs for the evening. Most importantly, it makes me feel proud to be part of Cohort 02/2005 when I can see everyone enjoying themselves throughout the evening! The scene of the whole cohort sitting in the function room, having fun with each other, will forever etch in my memory...

Just to update you people that I am posted to Queenstown Remand Prison as my 1st institution. I was pretty happy because QRP was my 1st choice when I chosed the choice somewhere in May.

Anyway, time for me to get a rest, still having a fever and I do not wish to waste my block leave to recuperate. Looking forward to my life in QRP but @ the same time, reminscing the times I had with all my buddies back in cohort 02/2005!

3 cheers for cohort 02/2005, hip hip, hurray!!!

2 more days to POP, but right now, feeling sick...

Guessed some of you might be surprised to see an entry during a weekday since I am still undergoing my BOC. Well, I am on MC for 1 day and Chief Chan don't allows me to stay back in HTA, so I have got no choice but to come back home. Probably due to the fact that I was under the rain for most of the time yesterday during our trip to Sentosa for the endurance run. Wasn't feeling too good before the fun and I never really get a good rest after the academic examz, so fever, headache and vomitting 'attack' me. But well, looking on the bright side, I can clear some of the items from my locker so that I need not bring so much stuffz back home after our Passing Out Parade on this coming Friday...

A recap of what happened last week since I didn't write anything;

15/06/2006 Thursday:
Officially finished our final paper on today which is on Inmate Management & Rehabiliation. Was so feeling so happy until Chief Desmond said that Exercise Whallaby will be held tomorrow. Haiz, juz hoped that everything goes smoothly for Exercise Whallaby.

16/06/2006 Friday:
What a day to start wif heavy rain! But well, I am chosen as inmate, so I guessed it would be pretty fun even though there are only 5 of us acting as inmates. Water bombs filled wif detergent and flour were our main source of weapons and think it was pretty terrible to throw these water bombs on your cohort mates. However since instructions were passed to us that we were to 'attack' the troopers, we have to obey orders. By the time it reaches afternoon, it was a reversal of roles when I were being called back to be part of the trooper team. What goes around comes around and it's time for me to have a taste of what it is like to have water bombs being thrown @ you. Haha, but on the whole, the whole exercise was completed successfully and all of us heaved a sigh of relieve as it would be the last exercise b4 we passed out from PSTS.

Went to meet Elna, Hui2, Fen-er, Khia & Min Zhi for a gathering @ Causeway point. Had Seoul Garden's buffet for dinner & it was quite an enjoyable dinner wif the gals since I had not seen them for a very long time. Pretty glad to hear that all of them are doing fine. I wondered when will be the next time that I can get to see them again.

17/06/2006:
Went over to Raven's place for house-warming & his house was pretty well decorated though Old Man commented that the colours kinda blinded him, haha. Sat down there and had some discussion wif Lau pertaining to our End of BOC dinner. Stayed there for quite sometime b4 I made a move to have my hair cut for this coming Friday's parade. Stupid barber, he actually did a flat top on me which I hated the shape man. Gonna live wif this hair-style for the next 2 weeks, sianz...

允许你快乐

允许你快乐
允许你自由
允许你被他背弃后来找我
半夜三点多
淋着雨你又站到我家门口
哭到我的心都痛

一个拥抱就暖和同心的颤抖
我同样都有情关难过
已经不能管别人接不接受

允许你要的快乐
快乐何需要的那么多
只要微弱烛火
让你找到我在黑暗中
不会流落在街头对我就已经足够

允许你这样快乐
遍体鳞伤也勇敢负荷
就是这种感受
不知为什么心碎时刻
都是我陪你度过爱了就不许回头

牵着你的手徒然的快乐

2 more weeks to go

Events cleared so far:

IPPT: Shuttle run - 9.9 sec
Chin ups in 30 sec - 25 reps
Standing board jump - 226cm (to be improved to 230cm)
Sit ups in 1 min - 46 reps
2.4km run - 10min 31sec (to be improved to under 10min)
Overall : Silver

Paper 1: Legislation

Events not yet cleared:

Paper 2: Ops & Security (12 June 2006)

Paper 3: Inmate Management & Rehabilitation (15 June 2006)

Exercise Wallaby (Date not yet confirmed)

Endurance Run (20 June 2006)

Squad... ADVANCE!!!

UST ah UST... I lost 1 1/2kg since the start of the UST, damn poor thing siah... But to be honest, UST is FUN & INTERESTING! Indeed, if we dun take this tactical seriously, it would be a disaster to us if there's a real case of riot...

I am enjoying the tactical training as days go by because I really feel the importance of this final tactical training. I know in future, I will miss the sweat, the fun & the scoldings of this period of time. I wish time can stop still now, because I am starting to hate the fact that this BOC is going to end in 4 weeks time...

Squad, FORM UP!
Squad, don respirator...
Squad, remove respirator...
Squad, Advance...
Squad, Return...
Squad, Halt...
Squad, Single Line Extend...
Squad, Section 1 & 2 Extend...
Squad, 2 Blocks Form...
Squad, Cordon 1...
Squad, Cordon 2...
Squad, File Formation...
Squad, Shield Up...
Squad, Flak...
Squad, Fall Out!!!

Prata, coconut, sun-burnt...

Another week had passed again. Well, pretty relaxing as the whole week was academic lesson besides the usual physical trainings that we had. Kinda looking forward to the weekend as it's the cohort outing @ Sentosa.

Really thankz to the facilitators for organising this outing and as well as the games that they had planned for the day itself. It was fun & definitely, it was even better looking @ babes in bikini. =P

Kinda got myself burnt as I was under the sun for most of the time during the stay @ Sentosa but I wouldn't mind coz the enjoyment makes me forget about the pain, hehe. =P

Way to go, 5 more weeks!

I wish...

坐在你的身边是种满足的体验
看你看的画面
过你过的时间
天也晴了
花也开了
微风也沉醉
虽然你不说话
却也早已万语千言

分分秒秒显的清澈又珍贵
只有你才能给我这种感觉
不管心多疲倦
梦想还有多远
有你陪伴一切都无所谓

我要陪你擦拭每个昨天,相片,日记,书签
有暖意慢慢浮现
我要用默默的体贴
让你睁开双眼
看见昨夜梦想都实现

我也愿意帮你打扫房间
把身体好好锻炼
好让你觉得安全
让你记得我的优点
无论任何时间
对我非常想念
非常想念

我也愿意帮你打扫房间
把牌技好好演练
陪你妈妈打八圈
为你写下盈泪诗篇
感觉就像触电
才会对我想念
非常想念

我也愿意帮你打扫房间
帮你的爸爸戒烟
帮你兄弟姐妹买早点
让你时刻觉得很炫
生活过得很休闲
对我非常想
念非常想念

Mr Goh, I give you my utmost respect!

Another week had passed and it's another long weekend for me. Well, juz need to prepare for stand-by in case of activation which chances are quite high though.

Finally Mr Goh had finished all the syllabus for legislation and @ the end of the day, what I can really see from this man is that his passion towards the Singapore Prisons Service is still burning strong despite the fact that he had oredi retired from the service. This had prompted me to ponder if I have the ability to allow my passion to last as long til the day I retired too. Much as he had grumbled about the fact that he should retire long ago, but those who can observe, can see thru his eyes, that his heart speaks otherwise. Though as much as he hope that his son can leave the service, but his eyes had oredi told me that he is very proud of his son. Mr Goh, if I have the chance, I will definitely give you the salute that you deserve to have. Thanks for your patience in teaching the cohort on legislation, thanks for sharing your life-long experience.

6 more weeks to go!

If there's any burst-up in a friendship, things ain't gonna be the same anymore...

Impossible Mission Force...

Went to catch a movie wif Iskandar, Firdaus, Haryati, Harfidah & their frenz... Mission Impossible 3 is truely worth the money as this is 1 of the movies which I actually enjoyed from the beginning till the end. Well, though the action-wise was a little far-fetched, but it's sufficient to bring entertainment to the whole cinema.

BTW, I wanna extend my heart-felt thanks to C/W Teoh. I will bear in mind whatever she had told me during the 1st day of the mock-up cell fight. Kev, keep up the fighting spirit! 7 more weeks to go! =)

Inmate, calm down, do not struggle, or else...

Phew, another week juz passed like a streak of lightning. Maybe it's due to the fact that for the past 5 dayz, it's basically CNR CNR & more CNR...

Yeah man, I had fully recovered from my blueness, all thankz to my 'counsellor'. I finally can smile, can lame & can joke for the whole of this week. I also realised that after the blues, somehow or rather, my fighting spirit had elevated to another level. I am GOOD TO GO! =)

8 MORE WEEKS!!! KEEP UP THE FIGHTING SPIRIT!!!